The goal is simple. It is to avoid the road to nowhere.
“The human race is a monotonous affair. Most people spend the greatest part of their time working in order to live, and what little freedom remains so fills them with fear that they seek out any and every means to be rid of it.”
― Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, The Sorrows of Young Werther
What drives you?
What defines you?
Better yet – what is your purpose?
These are questions I have asked myself lately. As I get closer to 30, I realize that I need to have a more concrete and thorough foundation of purpose. I need to be able to answer the above questions without the slightest of hesitations. Most importantly, I need to be keenly aware that every day is another day lost, never to return again.
I am a self-motivator. I always have been. Getting shit done when it needs to get done is a strong suite of mine. I can take the tiniest thought, memory, or want and allow it to power me through whatever I am doing. What may seem insignificant and trivial to someone else can fire me up for hours. I am always ready and always think ten steps ahead.
Being so mentally thorough is a disservice at times. I struggle to relate to those who live among disorder and chaos – Those people who sleepwalk through life without purpose. These people live to exist. Sadly, this is the majority.
I often get the feeling that I am standing along, among a bunch of mindless zombies going through the same repetitive motions day after day, month after month, year after year. The herd mentality is a fixture everywhere you look, and is only getting worse and worse. Society is one great group think; where everyone strives to copy and eventually one up the next man. The problem is that the next man has nothing desirable in the first place. It is all just insignificant noise, designed to keep the majority in a state of inertia and inaction. No responsibility is taken, and none is desired. The opportunity to travel on the road to nowhere is the desirable itinerary for the modern man.
This I cannot settle for. My faults are abundant – but accepting a life I don’t want will never be one of them.
I want to stand for something. I have strong beliefs and desires but I need it to be more concrete. More visual. I want to continue to ruthlessly pursue my passions no matter the roadblock I meet or excuse I imagine. Ultimately, I want to match my monetary earnings with that in which I love to do. This isn’t a radical idea. Everyone SAYS they want this.
But who is actively moving in that direction? Who would do whatever it takes?
How many of you are doers?
I am frantic to the point of madness – I WILL meet my goals. I refuse to be the man who stands for nothing. Someone who is a drowning in an unhappy partnership, or who has substituted another person’s dreams and desires for that of his own. These men are toxic, and chances are slim they ever turn off the road to nowhere.
A man is never complete until he has a purpose. Too many go to the grave without one.
So I’ll ask again…
What defines you?
“It is not that we have so little time but that we lose so much. … The life we receive is not short but we make it so; we are not ill provided but use what we have wastefully.”
― Seneca, On the Shortness of Life